i became me in april

welcome april, my birth month.a quarter of the year has passed by and the hurly burlies of life never stops to enthrall me. as expected, this month will bring unique possibilities and of course drawbacks that i need to face. so glad it finally came because it speaks of many good things to me. it is the month of "many things" such as... , let me think.... of course, my bday, my mom's and niece's birthday, my friends birthday and anniversary, the advent of spring, lovely flowers and fresh shades of green, more daylight, weather tends to improve for outdoor flings, april fools, earth month, chocolate eaters and the smile month, the humour month, stress awareness month etcetera, etcetera. april is a time of re-growth and the pure amount of reflection of life will surely leave me somewhat tipsy. april's coming was also an indication that i survived march. april leads to may and may leads to summer and draws me another step closer to that "special" month i was hoping for. but while the month smiles, promises and blesses, i had a melodramatic start and have been into that life's roller coaster ride once again. the ride really took me to a loop and went around and around in some sort of a dizzying cycle. and just in case the ride won't cease to a halt, i hope it won't build to a primal scream.i love april and i'm starting my blog off with these wishes and whatever thoughts that i have.

i wish you could feel me now
i wish you could see me
i wish i could show you how
i wish i can be the proof to show you
the many people in need for you
and those who can't live without you
many months ago

i figured out that i love you
and i wanted it so much
i was glad to have the chance
in the best i could, to give that out
i must say that i am fortunate
to love more than once in my life
and to have that love shared
once more to you
with all the joys and the hurt
the throbbing of my heart inside my throat
and the crushing wait
that what love is all about, i believe
i could only grow
by being into something that isn't easy
while i fall in love with you
i slowly find bits and pieces of myself
that i haven't recognized yet
somehow, you weren't aware
how you have been keeping me in touch
to knowing those parts of me - -
growing and nurturing them
making me more infinitely loving
this love i surely intend to keep
i know its mine
when i'm awake
and
when i'm asleep

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