March 29, 2011

social suicide. . .

september of 2009, after some intense, ceaseless prodding from friends, i caved in to being on facebook. i thought, what the heck! i needed it somehow, to network with my former classmates for our high school grand reunion. my list grew and the last thing i knew i have been exchanging views with my nephews, nieces, cousins and even childhood friends i haven't connected with for ages. few weeks ago i made a bitter-sweet decision to withdraw from the site. friends were sad and understood. although a week before i deactivated my account i bragged on my wall on the goodness of fb-ing . my comments were true and sincere. i did find a local community to hang out for few minutes or so and just be there, enjoy some virtual company to while away my time especially at night. there are also a number of people in my list that are a joy to follow. while its main purpose is to get in touch, i realize, as i went along with the process of greeting and responding to statuses, i was also building a commitment which at first i was able to fulfill and keep up with the rest. as time wore on especially in my invariably hectic life, i could now hardly catch up with it. i miss my fb friends though.... and that comes from the bottom of my heart.

it's not like i've commited a form of a social suicide. i'm still very much around though in the web. if i want to update the world with whatever is on my mind, i have my blog. i remain sharing videos via you tube and if i want to connect with my friends and family, i have email and other methods of keeping in touch.

the breaking point though why i got out of fb is very personal and will not be divulged here anymore. for now, i will devote my time to my blog where there is no commitment and where i am in complete control. i'll linger around as it had been before until the diaspora comes out for my social networkings needs.

i might be back there at some point. who knows?

spirited and unique. . .

few days ago, i have been feeling quiet, somber, realistic and contained. it seems i see things pessimistically than usual. i knew though that this dark mood is temporary. because today i feel i’m charged with new energy, vitality, and sense of purpose, capable of forceful, decisive action. i feel great, physically and my energy is flowing smoothly. my interactions with others are feisty and spirited and I’m glad that I’m able to inspire others to take action. the group efforts or joint projects which i'm involved are favored. it’s a must that i need to keep moving and to appreciate myself as a unique individual. the future is brighter than the past. while the present might not be so bad, i see it as a gateway for now. it’s also a must for me take a break. . . soon!