a word of thanks. . .

closing shop while thinking back how my week whizzed through. it's been very stimulating and productive and i owe all these to our heavenly father. i'm thanking him now because of the challenges i faced and surpassed, the moments when i felt sad and longing, helpless and needy. i express my gratitude more when i didn't receive what i prayed for, or when i'm in pain and tears and when the odds are in the toughest league to break me. these are the moments when my faith in him gets stronger. pray not because of want. have a wonderful weekend everyone!

on bragging. . .

i'm commenting on the link that a friend of mine posted on her fb wall. although the word "bragging" poses a negative connotation, which is synonymous to "showing off" or "being proud", in my opinion, what makes it sound unpleasant depends on how the listener feels on the success or happy story being told. do you feel a form of envy and jealousy and make you feel less of yourself? if you do, that negative vibes will be passed on the person you're talking with by labelling him or her as a "braggart". here is what i think. . .

bragging is not actually an awful thing to do. the sharing of joy and pride could only be twitched as bragging if the person being shared to a happy news of success wouldn't take it welcomly or happily. sharing stories of successes and achievements to friends and families could also mean well, only if we regard it as an inspiration or a guide to make our lives better! remember that these people who have accomplished their goals have worked hard and perhaps took some monumental steps to be successful. for most of us, we do our best to live well in our own places and if we did so, who wouldn't be so happy and proud about it? i guess for people who has the urge to share what they have achieved could speak openly but carefully. share it with a grateful heart and exude a sense of inspiration towards others. we do our best to carry on with God in our lives. but don't forget as well that we live with a community of people. hope this helps at some point! have a nice life everyone!

ssssh.......

silence is my faithful ally. i wallow in it in times of uncertainty and it favours me greatly. it cures and teaches my heart to be profound. speaks more of truth and it is more eloquent and powerful than speech. silence cleanses my sometimes over-stimulated mind. i find humility in silence and it never fails me. never cracks never breaks but fulfills its promise to steer me to the gate of peace.

boredom

when i'm bored i think i am tired of my surroundings but i am really tired of my thoughts. it is trite, repetitious, unobserved thinking that is producing the discontent. adopting a quiet awareness, a kind of listening attitude, usually freshens my mind and brings the situation i am in to life.      (echoing prather)

humility. . .

when gabby concepcion returned to manila years ago he was asked of his life experiences during his stay in the US. he said it's been very humbling to live and work in america. i seconded him on that because i felt the same way when i migrated in canada to build my life, family and career. i met the first face of humility in victoria university during my very crucial first day at work through welcoming handshakes and gestures from my colleagues who, until now, remains humble and grounded. it's a breath of fresh air to be around people who are not enamored of their position, power and ideas. the humble experiences i go through is the thing i would like to pass on to my children and to the people i meet everyday. i won't elaborate the virtue of humility here as i continue to be cognizant about it. in the real sense though, humility is the way to achieve wisdom, perseverance, blessing and successful relationships. we all reek with pride, and so "humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God." (1 Peter 5:6).

post birthday

along with avalanche of well-wishers, my special day was celebrated with somethng gold and bubbly,something sweet and creamy and something citrucy and healthy. by mid-day a wonderful, intangible gift was given to me. and i just couldn't believe that it did happen on my birthday!! :-)) the next day, the 20th remains a special and important day. it was neil's piano examination at the royal conservatory of music which we were so anxious and excited about. munchkins and i celebrated my day and neil's musical accomplishment. i love birthdays especially when it begins and ends in pretty notes.

agree, disagree

whenever i find myself arguing for something with great passion, i can be certain i'm not convinced. i find it almost impossible to make a strong declarative statement in conversation without feeling little nagging doubts and reservations. "i agree" and "i disagree" are impossible states of mind. no two people can think exactly alike or anthithetically. sometimes i say "i agree", because i want to avoid an encounter; sometimes i just want to get the other person to shut up. i usually say "i disagree," when i want to exhibit myself. there is an important difference between telling a person how i experience him and adding arguments to support the correctness of my view. my feelings about another do not require a case. i don't notice them deductively. (echoing h.p.)

(birthday 2012) - timeless. . .

 today! once more, i am breaking through the clouds in order to breathe life into the horizon. a bit woozy though to think that i am aging. i have now passed mid-life and honestly, i didn’t want to but the process is inevitable. whether i like it or not i will continually age every year. i pray that God will always include me in his plans. yet even if i added another year i have always felt timeless. with my munchkins around, i feel youthful and energetic and always rejoicing with what the world has been offering me. at this age, i could say that i have achieved the fulfillment i wanted in terms of my harmonious existence, the vast knowledge i have acquired, and my steadfast commitment to reach out and inspire others. when i needed peace, it has always been easy for me to acquire that. i am also blessed with people who loves me dearly. a wonderful job, a life, a love and my children.

today, i ponder, once more, my greatest dreams in excitement and at the same time with wistful sense of longing. it seems my dreams are just within reach, waiting for me to walk into them. i feel like what i desire. i also value the life i was given, building, dreaming, living with love, writing about love, treading the path of love, sharing, encouraging people and experiencing. i had a year of wonderful moments and  of course, share of trials and deprivations. as always, i had some lessons learned especially on my interaction with my daughters. as they grow, rearing them gets more complicated but every complications i surpassed makes me more committed and self-assured. when i look back as well, i also couldn't imagine my life without so many of you.

i continue to be in deep gratitude and appreciation for what i have and for what i continue to receive. i am also in gladness and in anticipation for the life i am going to lead in the coming months which, as always, an enthralling mystery to look forward to. thinking of what lies ahead gives me a sense of urgency to pursue every ounce of my dreams with an unstoppable passion.

i am pleased to have been showered with well wishes from family and friends all over the continent. my smile has been on steroids for the entire week! to everyone who remembered me, your good words and well wishes and efforts to reach me out have been taken so happily and have been treasured and remembered deeply in my heart.

yes! another year older, yet timeless. . .

not wrong, just misinformed

no one is wrong. at most someone is uninformed. if i think a man is wrong, either i am unaware of something or he is. so unless i want to play a superiority game i had best find out what he is looking at.

"you're wrong" means "i don't understand you" - i'm not seeing what you are seeing. but there is nothing wrong with you. you are simply not me and that's not wrong.

(echoing h.p.)

i choose to belive jesus walking in water. . .

there is so much going on around us today. storms, earthquake lurking here and there. fear and and frustrations threatening. i am a human being and I get scared. fear, worry is sort of crushing my spirit which i am trying to shake off. but I choose to believe in Jesus walking on the water. i choose to hear his voice as he commands the troubles to be calm and be still. i choose to trust. that is simply all I can do. i take God with me because i am helpless without him. dear God protect me, my daughters, my family, my friends, loved ones the entire world. calm our fears and take us to your safe embrace. amen!

live!!

play safe..yes, we feel secured with these words. but if you're not risking and trying something that goes beyond your whim, you deprive yourself from amazing experiences this world has. magic and miracles do surrounds us so live!! while you do, someone up there is going to live with you. ~bonette

keep hopes and dreams bright. . .

keep hopes and dreams bright. . .i'm sharing this thought with hopes that you will continue to hold on to whatever goals you have in life. there were moments perhaps when you feel you want to give up and to throw all of your dreams aside. i feel the same way, once in a while. i do my best though to steer my mind to this belief that every life story begins in a special, magical moment. every success begins from a turning point after which the situation completely transforms and all kinds of exciting possibilities begin to grow. as we never know when fate will strike or where it will lead us, what we need to do is to keep our hopes and dreams burning bright in our hearts until the day that fate launches us into a rousing new adventure.


continue to believe.....

accept your own truths. . .

trying days continue on. couple of minutes ago, i wallowed in silence in search of directions and answers to questions. a nagging question though came into my mind. what would it take for me to accept and consider my own truth? perhaps this could be your question and answer as well. that moment of quietness has been very significant to me. i needed that moment. . . . badly.

happy birthday mom!!

if i can be only half the parent you have been in my life, the lives of my children will be extremely lucky. i became what i am because of you who showered me with your wise advice and love. i love you so much mother and i am truly amazed at how you managed loving a lot of people all at the same time. here's a toast to you dear mother, a special and an important person in my life. wishing you a very Happy Birthday.

love and hugs, neil, cailean and me!

isang pagbati....

alleluia! alleluia! si kristo ay nabuhay muli para sa ating kaligtasan! nalulugod ang aming mga puso sa kanyang kabutihan at pangako. mula sa aming tatlo, pinaabot namin ang pagbati ng maligayang pasko ng pagkabuhay!! nawa'y punan ang inyong mga puso ng kaligayahan at katahimikan. :-)

on betrayal....

at this very moment there's this one word that keeps on creeping into my mind. it's the word BETRAYAL. judas iscariot's betrayal of jesus is of course very familiar to all of us and at the same time very troubling. indeed... it is very troubling. i know because i had been betrayed as well. and God knows how betrayal hurts so much from people who says love you. and i've been asking myself, who's going to betray me next?

semana santa. . .

mahal na araw, semana santa, banal na araw… anuman ang tawag natin hindi pa rin nagbabago ang tradisyon at obligasyon nating mga katoliko. isa na ang pag-ayuno sa mga bagay na nakakapagbigay saya sa ating katawan, pagtalikod sa mga bagay na materyal, sa gawang mababa at tiwali, taimtim at buong pusong pagdarasal, pangungumpisal, ang tapat na pagbibigay ng ating sarili at pagsuko sa kanya ng ating mga paghihirap para sa paghahanda sa misteryo ng hapis at ng tuwa. ginagawa natin ito upang maalala natin ang paghihirap ni hesukristo para sa ating mga kasalanan at maihikayat ang ating sarili sa buhay na malugod at ispirituwal. ibat iba ang pagunawa at pagpapahalaga natin sa okasyong ito gaya na rin ng pagkakaiba natin sa pagsunod sa kanyang mga utos at sa landas na ating tinatahak. sadyang tanging sarili lang natin ang maliwanag na makakasulyap sa totoong saloobin, sampalataya at pag aninag sa ating panginoon. ngunit sa ating puso at isip, nag-uumigting ang kagustuhang tahakin ang landas ng pagpapakabanal. maligayang pasko ng pagkabuhay sa inyong lahat!

i thrive in april

april has come and spring has started niggling my brain, making me excited about the plans i have. i always regard spring as a season of change and transition which I believe is true for both humans and nature. for nature, the transition is from a lifeless landscape to plants shooting off green buds from the branches and birds starting to chirp and flutter by. for us humans, we normally transform ...ourselves to a better person and we tend to make our perspective even larger. we correct our emotional spills and make ourselves stronger in facing adversities.

i was born on april and will be growing another year older in a few weeks time. and yet no matter how many april birthdays i celebrated, i remain to feel young. i guess the growth i see around and the brightness and vibrance of the season have always helped put myself in a positive and happy disposition in life. i like thriving in spring and i always wait for this season every year. the month is about the promise of spring fulfilled, but also the promise of things to come and has always been given a romantic image of showers and flowers typifying colours and births. it's all about brightness and cheerfulness around and being free because it promises outdoor activities with friends and families.

change and transition in my life will be constant as i breathe. every day is meant to coming into terms with my flaws and improve it and think as well what are the flaws i want to keep. it is springing up over and over again. as i always say, i remain growing... happy april everyone!!

spring has sprung!

stepped out of the office smiling when the warmth of sun touched my skin and my smile was like on steroids for it didn’t fade for some time. university students were all out basking under the sun. mats and towels spread out on a still damp grassy ground and they learn and play all at the same time, wearing sun hats, shorts, flip flops, sun dress and what not! spring has truly arrived. this  post would show how I appreciate its coming!

better days...

my week has started to get better and better as it simmers and i promise to be at the top of my game for the next coming weeks. the brisk buzz of spring is in the air (thank god!) though the weather remains cool. i could feel the excitement as i imagine the possibilities that lie ahead. although the current situation isn't all what i want, i am steadfast to take bold steps in the direction of my dreams.

celebrating women. . .

again we’re in celebration of the day when crucial steps towards gender equality were made. this year international women's day marks 100 years since it’s first March 19, 1911 in austria, denmark, germany and switzerland. the decision t...o observe this day happened in 1910 at the second international conference of working women held in copenhagen where it was proposed that every year in every country to celebrate and to press for various demands made by women. being a feminist, i’d would always mark the day by sharing titles from my archives which might give you answers to some perinnial questions about gender equality. happy reading and happy women’s day!

ain't i a woman- the book is about intersectionality and the manner racism and sexism correlates and interacts. the book was written from a more scholarly and historical perspective.

singled out - talks about the lives of women during world war 2 and n deals with the generation of unmarried women that followed world war 1.

virgin - blank explores the historical roots of virginity as a cultural construct and some of its present day ramifications. this construct is inextricably linked to attempts to control women’s sexuality.

this thing called "expectation"

expectation, unrealistic or not, doesn't hurt. it is the unwilling heart that does. while people tend to lower their expectation each time it isn't met, i don't change mine. expectation inspires me. it is the force that pushes me to give my best. without it i have nothing to dream and hope for. if every heart is willing, loving and giving, definitely expectation wouldn't be thought as the culprit. but reality shows that that is not the case, and for me, this is one sad part of living.

how to love a woman. . .

I WISH ALL MEN THINK LIKE BOB MARLEY (ON HOW TO LOVE A WOMAN) “You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect – you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her... and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break – her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there. - Bob Marley”

philippine's shining moment in miss universe pageant

pagkatapos ni gloria maria diaz (1969) and maria margarita moran (1973) na naging miss universe, wala pang sumunod sa kanila. gusto ko lang ibahagi sa inyo ang napakagandang sagot ni moran na ipinanalo nia:

what’s the difference between being miss Universe and being a filipina?

"being miss universe is like having a birthstone, you may lose it. being a Filipina is like having a birthmark, its forever." – m. moran (miss universe 1973)

magazine rack made out of brown planters

 i found a use for my 2 brown planters which have been lying around for sometime in my balcony. i knew i would have some use for it so i kept them aside until today when i attached them together, spray painted and decorated for use as a magazine rack. it's just feels awesome each time my hands and brain do something creative!! ;-)

wire the bottom of the planters to attach them








spray painted with yellow and orange to add colours












added a plastic pine leaves and cone

run a ribbon around the attached bottoms of the planters

here you go!! a magazine rack made out of plastic planters.

one foggy day. . .

foggy day, foggy head: woke up this morning a bed head

foggy day, foggy head: rushed to work, 10 minutes late
foggy day, foggy head: made errors 5 times writing biz letters
foggy day, foggy head: send job requests to the wrong department
foggy day, foggy head: couldn't find the pad where i wrote on an important note
foggy day, foggy head: searched through my garbage can to find that note
foggy day, foggy head: went out to get a java and found out no moolah
foggy day, foggy head: forgot to do an important personal banking
foggy day, foggy head: got no umbrella and it was raining

it's now 9:30 pm and my head remain floating into a sort of dark labrynth of a maze. guess you now know how my day did go. none to worry though cuz i'm good, a bit tired so. tomorrow no more sluggish synapses i hope. only hap-hap-happy and snap-snap-snappy!!

happy birthday dearest sister. . .

•♥•♥•♥•♥an in memorial post for my one and only sister elena (aka: amnah) who passed away 10 years ago. remembering her golden year had she remained alive today.


i remain to say your name as it always was and laugh and smile at the fun things we enjoyed together. you may be out of sight but could never be out of my heart. i miss you so much and i know you're happy in your heavenly home. happy birthday manang. with much love, your sis bonette and your two nieces neil and cai.•♥•♥•♥•♥

luv the way you treated me dear august....

they say things that happen in life either good or bad is something to thank for. our days in july have passed by tremendously well. munchkins and i have spent so much fun time together. i gave them time off from their piano lessons after the music festival.

sharing this piece of thought. . .

i have been described by a friend as a person who always feels a need to explain or to do something in order to prove my point or justify what i believe. oftentimes it's either that my prattle would end up into a debate or others would thought of me as being so much enamored of myself and of what i know. deep inside though all i wanted out of that deed is to simply interact, open a conversation and share my thoughts. a week ago i ran through this thought from a newspaper which caught my attention. it reads.....

the more you talk, the less you will say. the more you think the less you will understand. the more you struggle, the less you will achieve. the more you worry, the less you will enjoy life. we are not obliged to communicate with one another. we do not have to stretch our intellect to maximum capacity. there is no law that says we must keep on making things happen or that our lives mean less if we don't. it is, though, essential to be happy. and this is perfectly possible despite all we fear.

thought well taken...:-)

$1,000 blessing for munchkins. . .

munchkins always look forward to the coming of this season - summer. summer means school has ended. no homework, no quizzes. it's not that they didn't like school. they just dread the monotonous routine they get into from morning till afternoon and the dull uniforms they wear everyday. camps, field trips, outdoors also signify the season and i am tasked to sign them up for day camps for the entire two months starting july until the end of august. this summer though, it's going to be different for them. their activities will be a mixture of camps that was offered by the community centre and by a private organization.

on thursday, april 14, the program and education coordinator of the royal ontario museum, which is among world’s leading museums of natural history, and of world cultures, confirmed to me by email that cerniel and cailean have been awarded a $ 1,000 worth of subsidy. from july 18 to 29 they will be joining other children in ROM's summer club camp for its World Beat program.

the feeling was unexplainable when i received the great news. i couldn't help not to tear up as i read the email while feeling so blessed and privileged for the opportunity they have afforded my girls. and being the recipient of this blessing, my girls and i will definitely keep the blessing working by also being the source of blessing to other people.

with sincere gratitude. . .

silence. . .

some people are just very apt in provoking my emotion. i am unsure though of their purpose for pushing my sensitive buttons. it is really upsetting though when they do. it’s up to me if I choose to react or to remain impassive and not cater to what they are trying to get from me. silence is my best ally and this is my own way of making them stop

gratitude. . . .

thank you God for the gift of being able to listen closely to life. even in the peaceful throb of my heart i could hear you speak softly of truth for me. that voice within me serves my shield, my comfort and my perception, and in times of doubt and insecurity. i am in deep gratitude for letting me use that voice for my personal growth.

happy birthday dearest mother!

to the strongest and bravest woman i've ever known....

distance could never stop me from thinking and loving you

thank you mama  for always being there for me.

for your expressions of  love and comfort
for your guidance and mostly for sharing me your life.

happy 76th birthday my dearest mother!!

middle ground. . .

finding a middle ground between

 feeling free

and

meeting my obligations.

feather on munchkins' caps. . .

wednesday last week, a tinge of worry snuck up on me which dragged me down as mid day approaches. the rest of my working hours were punctuated by deep sighs but no complaints. it was just "one of those days" kind of thing that hovers around momentarily and moves on eventually. life has a way though of helping me out cope and opening up time-tested reasons to cheer up. these are my beliefs.

i wrapped up work conscientiously and dashed out fast not to beat the 5 o'clock rush but more of want to get to the babysitter's house where my munchkins stay after school. i wanted badly to see them and to hear their voices say "good afternoon mommy". at pick up they greeted me with lilting voices and eyes sparkling with excitement to tell me something. "we have a surprise mommy!" they said. on our way home i indulged to the cute snippets of hints they asked me to guess. i was also required to close my eyes, no peeking allowed, until they put out that "surprise thingy magingy" right in front of me. i obliged as i sat on the couch in anticipation. i was more than willing to do what they asked me.  turned out that my girls' strengths and efforts have been recognized by the school and was given a an award in language arts.  they were beaming with pride as they show me their certificates.

their presence, the strengths inside them, and the surprise worked hand in hand and turned my mood around and, as well, reminded me of my own strengths.

congratulations dearest munchkins!! job well done!

april 2011 thoughts. . .

april - my birth month. a month of spring and it's the time when we see the re-birth of the colours and sounds of nature. new growths on the soil and trees unfurl and the golden tones of sunlight have started to embrace our skin. i join nature in the growth and re-birth process with my mind pregnant with significant thoughts, when i grow another year older in a few weeks time. i am going to celebrate the special occasion starting now through reflection and re-affirmation of self.

with another year to my age do i get wiser? it is not inevitable. i continue to learn about life. i want to grow stronger and to be more adept in identifying priorities of life. i would like to explore myself more and the many ways to connect with others. change is something that i will always accept because that is a motion for me to grow. life will forever be a challenge, some things are meant that way. using time and thought and hardwork, i can deal with the challenge and the experiences will be considered a meaningful lesson amazingly learned.

i am april.... i am still growing.

change and expectation. . .

i always have expectations in all things including myself. while most people tend to lower their expectations each time they are not met, i don’t change mine. i look at expectations as something to hope for. it is a force that pushes me to give my best. i expect that i perform admirably to my commitments and use my energies to some creative use. along with that though, i expect that i will be misunderstood or my actions will be misinterpreted by others. if this happens, my recourse is not to feel frustrated. instead, I bravely take any blame and consider it as an opportunity to grow. for today,  i’ll bear in mind that I need to be careful on how I go about expressing myself and check whether or not my energies are actually behind my actions.

i want unsuperficial and profound changes in my life. i am resolved though not to force things to materialize and progress but to just indulge on how my ideas run through my mind even if these ideas don’t give huge  results at this time. i believe in hard work but I also believe in chance and on intuition. if nothing happens despite efforts,  i find it more sensible to retreat until I am ready to assert myself again. i believe that life and difficulties sometimes move on by itself. the essence of transformation is not to fight it but just allow it to exist and happen.

i hope and pray to succeed in everything that I do today and to the coming days ahead.

social suicide. . .

september of 2009, after some intense, ceaseless prodding from friends, i caved in to being on facebook. i thought, what the heck! i needed it somehow, to network with my former classmates for our high school grand reunion. my list grew and the last thing i knew i have been exchanging views with my nephews, nieces, cousins and even childhood friends i haven't connected with for ages. few weeks ago i made a bitter-sweet decision to withdraw from the site. friends were sad and understood. although a week before i deactivated my account i bragged on my wall on the goodness of fb-ing . my comments were true and sincere. i did find a local community to hang out for few minutes or so and just be there, enjoy some virtual company to while away my time especially at night. there are also a number of people in my list that are a joy to follow. while its main purpose is to get in touch, i realize, as i went along with the process of greeting and responding to statuses, i was also building a commitment which at first i was able to fulfill and keep up with the rest. as time wore on especially in my invariably hectic life, i could now hardly catch up with it. i miss my fb friends though.... and that comes from the bottom of my heart.

it's not like i've commited a form of a social suicide. i'm still very much around though in the web. if i want to update the world with whatever is on my mind, i have my blog. i remain sharing videos via you tube and if i want to connect with my friends and family, i have email and other methods of keeping in touch.

the breaking point though why i got out of fb is very personal and will not be divulged here anymore. for now, i will devote my time to my blog where there is no commitment and where i am in complete control. i'll linger around as it had been before until the diaspora comes out for my social networkings needs.

i might be back there at some point. who knows?

spirited and unique. . .

few days ago, i have been feeling quiet, somber, realistic and contained. it seems i see things pessimistically than usual. i knew though that this dark mood is temporary. because today i feel i’m charged with new energy, vitality, and sense of purpose, capable of forceful, decisive action. i feel great, physically and my energy is flowing smoothly. my interactions with others are feisty and spirited and I’m glad that I’m able to inspire others to take action. the group efforts or joint projects which i'm involved are favored. it’s a must that i need to keep moving and to appreciate myself as a unique individual. the future is brighter than the past. while the present might not be so bad, i see it as a gateway for now. it’s also a must for me take a break. . . soon!

i am fire. i am an arien. . . .

- - brave, strong willed. seldom back down. determined and driven to achieve goals. warm hearted, take risk, passionate. stubborn about things i believe in. direct and straightforward. assertive and i know what i want. love challenges. inspiring to others. exuberant, expressive, generous, protective, adventurous, fun-loving, creative, energized, and devoted.sensual, physical, lustful.temperamental, possessive, inconsiderate, reckless, fickle, open-hearted, high-spirited, pioneering, vain, feisty, and impatient.

i can live without romance. for me, not getting on without romance is not same as not being able to live without a man. in my heart i will always be yearning for that someone special. thinking about him is my idea of romance. i do anything and everything myself, without needing any male help. i have total confidence in my abilities. i have to leave and be the first to do anything. this kind of independence though does not go well with the male ego.

i chase after the love of my life even to the point of risking my own life. but once the love fires stop burning don't expect me to stick around. if the passion is gone, they are gone.

when i search a man, i search the one who does not chase or likes me. i wait for the one i can't have. i can survive even the toughest of circumstances alone and i can come back even after the most gruesome tragedies. i can play the role of a female perfectly and, at the same time, can do everything that a man can do.

i don't like flattery. i like sincere compliments. once i commit to someone, i will be extremely sentimental and loyal. don't dominate me and don't let me dominate you. either of the extremes, i will not be able to tolerate. give me reasons to be proud of you, but do not forget to praise me too. i am generous to the faults.

i enjoy a lively discussion of theater, music, politics, or even more esoteric subjects such as history, art, or philosophy.

my expectations are too high, but i will also give you double in return. i love to lead and hate to follow.

don't make me angry. if i get hurt, i will become as cold as ice and this may last an entire lifetime. if you find yourself in a verbal fight with me, you better come fully armed because i will be ready to tear apart every word that comes my way. if you are good to me i will be extremely kind, tender, loyal and supportive.

i am more comfortable with men than women. i am possessive, but i don't like to be possessed. i want my freedom and your complete trust. if i'm committed to you, you have no reasons to doubt my loyalty and sincerity. i am much too truthful to be involved with two people at the same time. i will first break up the relationship that is not working.

jealousy has a different meaning to me. my idea of jealousy does not relate to people or to the same sex but to the things that are supposed to be offered to me only. anything that you do for me should remain exclusive for me.

i am extremely passionate and believes in forever-lasting relationships. though this leave me disillusioned many a times. i don't play games and is incapable of deceit. i am nothing if not simple, innocent and very emotional. i love challenges and believe in miracles. i never learn from my mistakes and is likely to fall in the same hole again.

love for me means sharing and that means sharing everything, right from my emotions and material things. respect me, always and never try to dampen my zeal, or i will be hurt. my romantic nature tends to be very intense. i need to learn self-control or much trouble and annoyance are likely to be the bane of any long term partnership.

though i try to show that i am strong, i am as innocent and as vulnerable. be there to comfort me when in pain. if you stand up to me when i come to you like this, you will never ever lose me. i will never forgive you if you fail to fight for me. i am a complete woman, who gets hurt easily and is totally innocent.
in return, i will always be there with you, even if i have to go against the whole world. i am a caring mother, who makes no unnecessary fuss and sparks children's imagination.

i have a bad temper, but it will go away as quickly as it came and leave no grudges behind.though i am a little impulsive and bossy, i will give you complete security, fight against the world for you and be yours forever!bring your problems to me. i like being asked for advice. i am generous with my time, counsel, money, and sympathy.

i like extremes. physical, emotional and mental, and benefit profoundly by experiencing them; but if my extremism goes too far beyond social acceptability, i expect to be extremely lonely.

i am fire. i am aries.... i am the good and the bad.